I Am Who I Am

For as long as I could remember, self esteem and self confidence has always been an issue for me. I've allowed people to bully me without taking any sort of action. I've knocked my ownself down numerous times. I have even said that I deserved to be bullied because I was indeed overweight. So all these years, I've held emotions in, I've held all my anger in; until now. One day I woke up and I said I'm tired. I'm tired of it all. So I decided I wanted to be homeschooled. So to those of you wondering why I'm homeschooled thats the reason...bullying. I've been doing alot of thinking. I'm addressing this blog to the people who have EVER talked about me or bullied me...I'm done! I'm done with caring about what others say or think. As I'm getting older and maturing, I'm realizing that people are different when it comes to shapes and sizes and I'm also realizing that some people are just plain cruel. Being cruel gets you nowhere. Bullying is the best way a cruel person can retaliate against someone. The only reason you bully someone is because you have some insecurities and issues yourself. I have came to realize that I am who I am. I'm gonna love myself regardless of how anyone else feels. I'm gonna change my issue of being obese because I want to be healthy. I'm gonna do it for me, and not for anyone else. And another thing, don't go speculating. Just because I'm big doesn't mean that the only thing I do all day is sit around and eat greasy foods and sip on soda while snacking on king size candy bars or a family size bag of chips. I've had so many issues throughout my life that none of you know about. I've had deep issues in my life that has made me feel so low that I wanted to end it all with one slash to the throat.

Today I am realizing that I am beautiful inside and out. I know I have flaws, but who doesn't? The only person that can judge me is GOD. His judgement is the only one that counts. I'm gonna start believing in myself. I'm gonna love myself regardless of what others think. I'm gonna make a change for myself. I'm gonna start enjoying my life. I'm a very intelligient individual. I'm gonna use my intelligience to succeed. Confidence is real sexy! And when I've completed my goals. I'm gonna stand high and mighty and stand right in front of those of you that said I would always look that way and enjoy your expression when I say, "I told you so!"

I AM WHO I AM!!!